Stream of Conscious Saturday – 10/07/2021

The prompt for this week’s Stream of Consciousness Saturday is “hope”

Hope is a tricky thing. I don’t think I can exactly explain what the concept of “hope” is. Is it waking up on Christmas morning? That feeling you get that something awesome is just around the corner? Or is it the desperate understanding that things just have to get better, because you will not survive if they get worse.

I have no idea. I don’t know when last I felt hope. I use the word a lot “I hope this email finds you well”, “I hope you feel better”. I hope to never feel this way again”. But I still don’t know what that means. Then again, the absence of hope also sucks. Being hopeless is just as bad, that cold, numb nothingness that weighs you down from the inside out.

I might not have an exact definition of hope but I’m not going to stop looking for it, the absence of it is simply to horrifying to imagine